On Being 19

So I think that so far 19 has been the most confusing tumultuous year ever. It just seems so contradictory.

It's like everyone expects everything and nothing from you.

You go off to school school and they want you to become who you are, but yet it seems they have a specific idea as to who you are. They tell you to do your best, but yet they expect you to do well. They tell you to adjust to being away, but then they want you back. They want you to make friends, but they have certain ways they think you should hang out with them. They want you to grow up, but they still treat you like a little kid.

Well you know what I'm tired of what they think. I need to break away from basing how good I am on how everyone else sees me. *I* need to like who I am. I need to be true to myself. I need to do my best, not anyone else's idea of my best. I need to find me, even if that means doing something unexpected