So last night I did something I don't think I've done in awhile... I just hung out with friends. Usually it's like there has to be a reason for me to be with friends, but last night I just wanted to hangout. We were all laying together talking about nothing, giggling about everything. And you know what? I actually enjoyed myself and felt like I belonged there.
But then we all went to bed. That was when the bad thoughts came. Telling me that I was different from them and didn't belong. Being tired and already depressed, and alone (roomie is gone for a couple days) I just couldn't seem to fight them off. I just felt so different from everybody, like I just don't belong anywhere.
The thing is I know that I do belong I just can't seem to get those thoughts out of my head, especially when my body is feeling icky.
Right now I know that I belong here and that I should allow myself to have fun. It just seems to get really hard when my body is throwing me for a loop like it is now, with my cycle being off and all.
But then we all went to bed. That was when the bad thoughts came. Telling me that I was different from them and didn't belong. Being tired and already depressed, and alone (roomie is gone for a couple days) I just couldn't seem to fight them off. I just felt so different from everybody, like I just don't belong anywhere.
The thing is I know that I do belong I just can't seem to get those thoughts out of my head, especially when my body is feeling icky.
Right now I know that I belong here and that I should allow myself to have fun. It just seems to get really hard when my body is throwing me for a loop like it is now, with my cycle being off and all.
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